“Who is this person that I see staring right back at me? Do I know her? Does she know me? Who is this girl that I see? Her eyes look as if she has cried many tears from all her pain and suffering throughout the years; too much pain, too many tears. Has any laughter touched her years? Has she been alone all her life? Is her heart only full of heartache and strife? Did she have a shoulder she could cry on? Someone she could depend on? Someone to keep her spirits up while was down? Someone to turn her expression to a smile from a frown? Someone to comfort her when times were bad? Someone to hold her when she was sad? Was she alone in the world as a sad and lonely girl? Recognizing her face I start to cry. The girl I see is I. The only thing between us, a mirror. Now everything is much clearer and I realize now, she was alone, for the reflection I see is my own.”
I wrote those words when I was in high school, a time in my life when I felt so completely alone. I struggled with feeling like no one cared about me and I had no one to turn to and no one I could rely on. Thoughts of hopelessness consumed me and I thought daily about taking my own life. I truly believed that no one even cared about me, let alone all the pain I was dealing with and I believed that no one would care if I were gone. At this time in my life, I had no clue who God was and how much he loved me. I had no idea that in him, I would finally come to find the hope and love I had been longing for. I felt totally isolated. When we walk through times in our lives that are painful or hard for us, it is extremely difficult to make it through alone. It helps to know that someone is walking through it with you, doesn’t it? When I have faced difficult times in my life, there have been times when I had no one to turn to. High school was definitely one of those times. In Psalm 16, David is still dealing with his enemies and all that comes with fearing for your life and safety. He trusts God and is relying on God to protect him. He praises God for who He is and he is thankful for the promises God has made to him. He knows they are true! He knows that nothing can stand in the way of God. In my opinion, the biggest source of hope for David comes from verse 8;
“I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me”
David finds great hope in knowing that where ever he is, God is right with him! I can definitely find hope and peace in that! I am miles away from where I was in high school. I know that I am loved by God and that he is with me all the time, ready to help me, protect me, encourage me, and guide me. I have been blessed by people in my life who genuinely love me and are always willing to listen when I need someone to talk to. They are truly a gift from God! I encourage you today, if you are in a place in your life where you feel alone, to hold on to the words of David. God is always with you. He is right beside you and he is ready to wipe away your tears and hold you in his arms. He loves you greatly and you are very important to him. Trust Him to hold you and your life in his hands.
Father God, help me to remember each and every day how much you love me. Help me to remember that I am not alone and that you are right here with me. Help me to remember that nothing, absolutely nothing will happen in my life until you are ready for it to happen. Thank you, Father, for your ever present help in my time of need. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen.
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