Those of you who know me, know how important music is to me. If you have read through this blog you should also be able to see just how important music is to me. If you know me, or have been an avid reader of my often times lengthy blog, you also know that the past two and a half years have been very difficult for me. I always love that moment when listening to music and paying close attention to the lyrics when I realize what the musician singing is saying EXACTLY how I feel, or EXACTLY what I've been trying to say. Well, Sanctus Real, in their new album, "Pieces of A Real Heart", has done just that. I recently went to a Sanctus Real concert and I had the opportunity to chat a little bit with Matt Hammitt, the lead singer from Sanctus Real. After, getting a picture taken with him, I thanked him for his willingness to share his God-given talents and for being real in his lyrics. I told him that it was uncanny the number of times, in all their albums, that I have that the very same moment of realizing that their songs have taken the words right out of my heart added music and created a song. I know that God has definitely used music as a way to get my attention, to convict me of sin, and to get me back on my feet again. So what follows, while not my words, is exactly how I feel. It has been arranged as a prayer to God for surrender, and renewal. While they are not my words, it is EXACTLY how I feel... right at this very moment.
"Sometimes I just want to start over, ‘cause everything looks like a wreck. I need the courage to carry on, ‘cause I can’t see what’s ahead. There are places I’ve wished I could be, battles I’ve wanted to win, dreams that have slipped through my hands that I may never get back again. The past is playing with my head and failure knocks me down again. I’m reminded of the wrongs that I have said and done and that devil just won’t let me forget. My mistakes are running through my mind and I relive my days in the middle of the night and I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride and sometimes I feel alone, and I cry. I never imagined at the start the thousand ways I could find my heart caught in a web of compromise and stuck in the prison of my own lies. It was easy to find my way in, not as easy to get out. Oh, the roads to my own ruin are too easily found and I’m tired of trying to find my own way And I’m tired of playing the mouse in the maze. It’s like I’m memorizing the same old phrase and just repeating my steps to the same old place. Well, I found my way to trouble, I found my way to pain, but I’m so tired of trying to find my own way. I’m so tired of chasing the moment instead of chasing You. It must be tiring to meet my resistance. My stubborn will can be so twisted. Pride can steal the best from me. It’s not what I want, but You’re what I need. Take these empty “hallelujahs,” and fill my lungs again. ‘Cause I want to sing, and I want to mean it. I want to feel again. Jesus, keep my heart alive. Only you can save me when my world is breaking right before my eyes. You’re my only hope when my world is fading before my eyes. Jesus, keep my heart alive. I want to get lost, I want to get lost in Your arms. I want to get lost and lose my way into Your heart. ‘Cause there’s so many voices telling me how to get lost in this life. So right now, I want to get lost in You before I lose myself. So I surrender. I want You to take over me. Oh, I want You to take over me. I don’t want to be part of the resistance I want to be part of the release, so I want You to take over me. Oh, I’ve lost my faith in so many things, but I still believe in You. ‘Cause You are the answer, the redeemer. Oh, I’ve given up on too many things, but I’m not giving up on You cause You can make anything new. I don’t have every answer in life, but I’m trusting You one day at a time ‘Cause You can make a weak heart stay alive forever. This is where Heaven and Earth collide. I lift my hands and give my life. This is how my weary heart stays alive. In this life, I know what I’ve been, but here in Your arms, I know what I am. I’m forgiven I don’t have to carry the weight of who I’ve been ‘Cause I’m forgiven. When I don’t fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere. When I don’t measure up to much in this life, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ."
If you dont know who Sanctus Real is... Look them up. It will be well worth the effort. If you dont own "Pieces of a Real Heart", I highly recommend it.
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